With bit of excitement and trepidation both coursing through me, I woke this past Monday, alone for the first time in years. With a journey up what looks to be a mountain ahead of me, it was so tempting to just go back to sleep and see if next time I woke the mountain looked any smaller. Starting a new business, losing weight, getting into shape and cleaning the small disaster created in our home caused by years of neglect, tending gardens… You get the idea
With a bit of foresight, knowing what this morning would look like, I had written down some goals and events I wanted and needed to accomplish in the morning. That, was the thing that put my feet on the ground.
The past 6 years I spent as an over-the-road truck driver, team-driving with my husband, Kevin. In a lot of ways it was really good for me, building my confidence, stretching my abilities and I became really good at it. But 6 years of sitting on your tush most of the time makes you soft and flabby. Before this adventure, I worked out 5 days a week and was in fairly good shape although, still battling life-long weight issues.
Last October, in an attempt to deal with some fibroids and heavy periods I scheduled myself for an ablation which should have taken care of all of that and more including low iron. Five days after the procedure I landed in the ER with complications, exploratory surgery resulting in a total hysterectomy.
After all this, Kevin really didn’t want me to go back on the road but stubborn is my middle name and we had GOALS to achieve! So I joined him back on the truck for a few months until I realized it was truly time for me to retire from this life. So after 6 years I’ve hung up my truck driving hat while my husband stayed on.
Learning to be at home by myself means learning a lot of new stuff… like keeping the deer out of my garden (grrrr… yesterday they nearly decimated 1 of my 4×8 planter boxes of spinach, beets, beans and cucumbers). But probably the biggest thing to adjust to is being by myself all day and all night without Kevin after 6-years, 24-hour a day togetherness!
My biggest pleasure at being home? Sleeping in a perfectly motionless bed!
Hey, Sherlene! I am so exciting you are writing again. Keep it up! You might even inspire me to write on my blog again. I love knowing you are “home” these days. You and God can do this! It is an exciting time for you.
A huge adjustment and challenge Sherlene. Enjoy the journey and tell Kevin the same. Nice you were both together those six years on the road.
Twists and turns in life’s journey give spice to one’s life. It’s all good! This was emailed to me today: “This is your precious, precious life. Savor it. Grab the ring on the carousel. Ride the roller coaster. Do cartwheels. Open your heart. Never leave any love unexpressed. Kiss passionately. Hug frequently. Forgive generously. Give openly. Follow your dream. Laugh at fear. Take leaps of faith. Make beautiful things. Honor what you desire. Experience pleasure. Tap into Source. Let your freak flag fly. Be unapologetically you. It’s preventative medicine. And it just might save your life.”
I love it! Thanks Susan!