With bit of excitement and trepidation both coursing through me, I woke this past Monday, alone for the first time in years. With a journey up what looks to be a mountain ahead of me, it was so tempting to just go back to sleep and see if next time I woke the mountain looked any smaller. Starting a new business, losing weight, getting into shape and cleaning the small disaster created in our home caused by years of neglect, tending gardens… You get the idea
With a bit of foresight, knowing what this morning would look like, I had written down some goals and events I wanted and needed to accomplish in the morning. That, was the thing that put my feet on the ground.
The past 6 years I spent as an over-the-road truck driver, team-driving with my husband, Kevin. In a lot of ways it was really good for me, building my confidence, stretching my abilities and I became really good at it. But 6 years of sitting on your tush most of the time makes you soft and flabby. Before this adventure, I worked out 5 days a week and was in fairly good shape although, still battling life-long weight issues.
Last October, in an attempt to deal with some fibroids and heavy periods I scheduled myself for an ablation which should have taken care of all of that and more including low iron. Five days after the procedure I landed in the ER with complications, exploratory surgery resulting in a total hysterectomy.
After all this, Kevin really didn’t want me to go back on the road but stubborn is my middle name and we had GOALS to achieve! So I joined him back on the truck for a few months until I realized it was truly time for me to retire from this life. So after 6 years I’ve hung up my truck driving hat while my husband stayed on.
Learning to be at home by myself means learning a lot of new stuff… like keeping the deer out of my garden (grrrr… yesterday they nearly decimated 1 of my 4×8 planter boxes of spinach, beets, beans and cucumbers). But probably the biggest thing to adjust to is being by myself all day and all night without Kevin after 6-years, 24-hour a day togetherness!
My biggest pleasure at being home? Sleeping in a perfectly motionless bed!